What a day, I stayed at home besides going to school in the morning and chilled under my block with my boyfriend and Dania just now before he go for his soccer. My day today... BO to-the-edge RING.(!!)

Firstly, No one at home.
Secondly, No food in the kitchen. I feels like going out to grab some food to eat, my stomach is already growling as I've yet to eat since morning. :/ But this kind of weather = lethargic.
Thirdly, my prepaid is running low. So this mean that I can't text bby 24/7 like how we used to. I'm only able to text him once in a while. WTF. Hopefully, I'm gonna get money by tmrw.

Being alone is not pleasant at all. Do things all by yourself. Eat alone, sleep alone, study alone.
It wasn't fun at all. I miss my bestfriend. I miss having dinner with her, I miss going study with her. I was becoming despondent on how things were going between my bestf and I. We ain't close like last time. I knew that its hard to turn back times, but I really wished I could. People changed, agree? I got no one to turn to now except for my boyfriend.

And in one month to come, approximately around there, he's gonna leave me for weeks as he going for his soccer. And it's not even in Spore which means I can't even text or call him or even meet him. I'm still wondering how will this moment will be like. So who am I left with? Only god knows. But I'm lucky to have my girlfriends out there to look for some hapiness. Eventhough I met them seldom or even one in awhile to catch things up.

How I wish I could stop the time now and let me do whatever I want till I'm satissfied then the time can work again. Fat hopes. Besides that, it'll never even gonna happen even I cried till blood tears or begging this to happen.

I don't want to feel that the time is rushing. I don't want to sit for N' level yet cause I'm not prepared and I don't want my boyfriend to go.

It was inconsolable.
I miss my boyfriend.