I finally met baby today after three days of his camp to Bintan. It felts like waiting for an apple to drop from the tree while counting till he came back with my fingers and toes. Eventhough we didn't really get to talk that much, I'm so glad that he came back safely. But.. I felt bad after talking to him in a harsh way after school just now. Undeniably, it really was. Die ckp, biadap. Alright, once again I'm sorry baby.

Somehow, I had three solids days of motivational talks. It may be very long hours, approxiamtely about thirteen hours sitting there, listening to th trainers talking. The first time I came, I thought it's going to be hella bored, but no. No doubts that I really enjoyed my timethere. I've learnt alot of things and know what? I even get to see another side of the guys. In this particular night, everyone teared. Hmm, yes. ALL. There's certain reasons, but I'm just plain and lazy to simply briefly tell you how everything goes. In fact, I don't think you guys will reading this dumb blog either.

Right, I don't care.

Anyway just now, I went through my archives and I see this. Something I wrote and something I have to do.

I've already promised myself not to take this upcoming year for granted, nd to reset a new life. I can't even believe that I'll be sitting for my N level next year, and I am already feeling so nervous.

I've to change now, in terms of my attitude and all. I want what I want, and I know I can get it.
You know what they say? High self-esteem. So what?