Hey, everyone should take three minutes and forty five seconds of their lifetime listening to this song. Thanks to my darling Wenchieh who influenced me all those Jazz songs. Yes, I'm loving it.

It's almost to Seven. I'll look down at my phone to check if you have text me in my absence from this physical world. You're away for only two hours yet I miss you so much.

Jeez. Valentines Day coming..

It's already forty minutes past nine and I still haven't get ready all th stuff for school tomorrow.
I'm glad that school ends early at about ten-thirty. Instead of going home straight, I've already planned with one of my classmate to head down to our primary school since it has been donkey years since I last stepped into that school. The first thing that I'm looking forward is t see their Netball achievements. Gee. I'm still deciding of which bag to use since there's only one lesson and the rest is P.E lesson. Well, actually I'm kind of lazy to go to school. But heck, I still have to.

Anyway, my four days of holidays seemed mundane since I didn't do much things over th weekends apart from meeting baby, I would frankly tell you that I spent my hours sleeping. It seemed peaceful yet boring.

So just now, went to meet baby at about three plus. I made him waited for me for ahwhile, since I took my own sweet time bathing and changing. I quickly took a shower when he texted me saying that he's already downstairs waiting. HAHAHA. It feels good to go out and not argue for awhile except in th morning just now. *chuckles* I know that I've complained about how hot is th weather but thanks. I had a lovely day with you.

To that, I'm so exhausted today. I've yet uncovered rest before waking up by dawn for school.
Bye.


A friend is a person

to laugh and cry with,

An inspiration,

Someone who lends a helping hand,

though friends may not be forever,

And they may not end up together,

the memories of a true friendship will

last forever.

A friend is not a shadow nor a servant

But someone who hold

a piece of a person in his heart.

Someone who shares a smile,

Someone who brightens up your day

What makes a person a friend?

Is by saying your Love will stay.

DAMN. I CHOOSE TO HAVE NONE!

As far as I'm concerned, I would admit that I've never met a guy who's really straight forward. I have the perverse behavior that you try so hard to tolerate with. You know how to manage me. I'm not afraid to let everyone know of the one that I loved so much. I have fell upon an amazing person that I fear so much to let go. And how long will you think this last? I don't want things to end.

I don't know exactly what I'm feeling. I'm scared but I'm then kinda willing. Will you promise me just one thing? No matter what you gonna stay. Even if you've been busy so far, I solely thank you for taking the initiative t take your time to be with me tomorrow even I told you not to.

Why do I always end the posts feeling aggravated?

Alright, no. It's not th end of th post.

Anyho, today. Day three of staying at home, and still alive. To be frank, I've not been whipping my ass off to town back again. I feel so sad that I've not been getting all th stuffs that I want or th stuffs that I've been eyeing on decades ago. I just went on t check on my shopping list, there's still few things I've not get yet. )':
1)Bebe tube top.
2)Adidas Sleek.

So, today's post is in retribution of a sad ending. I was frustrated alongside disappointed.
Damn. But.. something which put a smile on my face that, my sister.. just.. bought.. me.. a.. CUPCAKE. :D

rofl.

I finally able to update this blog after nine days. I'm sorry avid readers, I'm busy with school nd stuffs. So, I managed to survive nine days of keeping everything to myself. *roll eyes* Four days of holiday is up, enjoyyyyy. ;D I hope I'm not too late to wish all Chinese, Happy New Year! nd my bestfriend, Amanda.H which owes me a red packet since she's already married. HAHAHA.

Besides that, I feel so vexed that I want to stuff my fist in my own mouth, apart from gargling a mug of warm water which had diluted salt in it to my ulcer to keep me sedated th whole day, but no, I did not. I can't bare with all th pains. I mean, it's not only one, but THREE for god sake. One is one th tongue. Damn. I keep complaining, I'm sure baby gets irritated. hahaha

Let's started of with school,

It feels like shit, but I still have to persevere for what is coming now. I studied for my History test very hard yet I only attained 11 out of 18. I am honestly appalled by the results I got, somehow, I was never happy. Chemistry nd Maths text, worst. I didn't even study. I played guessing game for th both test. rofl But school.. everything's fine.

Netball,

Training training training.
First match was against Fuchun sec at Republic Poly, played indoor. We won, but still I'm not satisfied with some people. Venting angers, shucks.
Three more games to go, girls.

Mmm. Day two of staying at home.
Yesterday was saturday, I miss my girls. It's been so long that I've seen them, or last catched up with them. I got multiple invitations, but heck, I'm lazy to get my ass off the bed. Anyway guess what? I met baby under my void deck lastnight before he left t his cousin place. Everything felt so great! ;D He's so chubby that I kept biting and pinching him. Hahaha

Today, Sunday.
I stayed at home doing nothing apart from texting baby. I'm just going to say that Sunday sucked Moby's dick. Reason being? I hate staying home. It's like burning rubber. It stinks!
God damn!



I finally met baby today after three days of his camp to Bintan. It felts like waiting for an apple to drop from the tree while counting till he came back with my fingers and toes. Eventhough we didn't really get to talk that much, I'm so glad that he came back safely. But.. I felt bad after talking to him in a harsh way after school just now. Undeniably, it really was. Die ckp, biadap. Alright, once again I'm sorry baby.

Somehow, I had three solids days of motivational talks. It may be very long hours, approxiamtely about thirteen hours sitting there, listening to th trainers talking. The first time I came, I thought it's going to be hella bored, but no. No doubts that I really enjoyed my timethere. I've learnt alot of things and know what? I even get to see another side of the guys. In this particular night, everyone teared. Hmm, yes. ALL. There's certain reasons, but I'm just plain and lazy to simply briefly tell you how everything goes. In fact, I don't think you guys will reading this dumb blog either.

Right, I don't care.

Anyway just now, I went through my archives and I see this. Something I wrote and something I have to do.

I've already promised myself not to take this upcoming year for granted, nd to reset a new life. I can't even believe that I'll be sitting for my N level next year, and I am already feeling so nervous.

I've to change now, in terms of my attitude and all. I want what I want, and I know I can get it.
You know what they say? High self-esteem. So what?

Lastnight, I went out to somewhere near baby's place just for passing him his gift and has planned to make a surprise for him. I leave home at about seven-thirty to meet Amanda.H but she make me wait for her for fucking half an hour, just to be on time when he reached his place from Tampines. Jeez, But nevermind since she already accompanied me all these while. *winks. Eventually luck wasn't pretty good for me yesterday, it was completely bland and I was on the verge into tears knowing that my plans gonna screwed up knowing that he's going somewhere with his parents instead of going back straight.

So you know what I did? I make my way up to his place and pass it to his maid instead since his parents wasn't at home either. Hoping that he'll be extremely shock knowing that I came by when I told him that I was at home all the way after training. Congrats, it really happened. HAHA. He was shocked, by the way. He sent me text messages frequently and I feel bad that I'm not replying him till I received his text saying 'ohmy god ! Baby ! Im really shock ! Damn shock ! When did u gave the ring t my maid ?! Ahhhh baby now my heart skip faster ! Shit ! Baby i love u ! ' Sorry, strawberry. I gagged and laughed the minute he said that, then I quickly reply him without any hesitation. Look at the way he said with those exclamation marks. lmao. Somehow I've made him look for me at the pier only twenty minutes after we communicated.. It wasn't that bad afterall, right? xD

To makes things better, I saw he wore it today. Gee, love you. ^^

Anyho, today, school was fine even if the class was intolerable. We were dismissed an hour earlier at One, for every wednesday. I supposed to go to WenChieh's house for my band practice for the upcoming event which I don't even know what is it for today, but it was canceled. So, I decided to stay indoor still planning what I'm suppose to do..



Second day of school and everything seems so fine. I pulled myself up at six in th morning, get changed nd off to school. I'm lazy, seriously. I shall not whine like a bitch once again, no more being lazy. No more. Took th same bus as baby and know what? He wore th backpack. Damn cute, i tell you. Sadly.. he didn't even talk to me. Throughout th whole lessons, I've been trying myself to be attentive but thanks to those contruction going on, which makes th atmosphere worst. Well, math lesson was okay since I've got th same teacher who taught me last year. Which is easier for me to understand compared t th other teacher, but when th part for english period, screwed up. I can't finish up a 300 to 400 essay in one hour. Not even two paragraph, instead I only managed to get only one. Stupid enough? I know.

It's already fifteen minutes past four. Baby is still in school having his floorball traning. Two hours and I'll be out with Amanda.H to Amk to buy something. Tomorrow is finally tuesday! Baby, you'll be fifteen soon. Although I can't spend my day with you on your birthday since me and you got our own tranings, I will spend the whole day with happy thoughts of you. And stop being so mean, for god sake. lmao



I hope it's not too late for me to wish all my loyal readers, Happy New Year!

It fucking Friday, nd th first day of school in th first semester. Since I'm not working today, I just thought of having a good, long sleep hours since I've been working and went home late everytime, but eventually school has started. Truth to be told, I'm lazy, no doubts. Need to drag myself at six every morning. Alright, I know I'm not th only one who needs to wake up so early. rofl.

I was supposed to meet baby in th morning to go to school together, but it's all my fault for taking my own sweet time walking to th busstop. And it's was damn packed, i tell you! I was merely on time for school since it started at seven-twenty and I came through the assembly hall at the exact time. Shall not drag about it any longer, so yeah, School was fine just now but th best part when I get to see baby in his long pants nd his new haircut which makes me wanna bite him. You know th feelings upon seeing someone who's god damn cute? Grr. You know, I'll definitely get you one day. Apparently there's no lesson today, all i did was just talking till th clocks stuck at twelve twenty-five. *smiles widely* I seriously hated th part when I'm heading back home, seriously, turned off. I get caught for my skirt today, yes today. The fucking first day of school.

I'm too lazy to be bothered to enscript a blog entry but I'm just doing it since I am hella bored.
I've even read baby's blog, he's just so sweet. He told me he could never forbid me or stop me from being who I am but he should always know that I've never been trying to hard to quit about my bad habits. I've got so many empty promises. *bite my lower lips*

I'm so sorry, Muhammad Fawwaz bin Anuar.
I fucking love you.